Capstone Preparation Experience Reflection Sydney Hirayama Spring 2023-Fall 2023 Capstone Cohort

During summer break, I worked on my application materials which included a video, essay, and resume in English and Chinese. When school started, I began to prepare for the language assessment. I took a few practice tests, and I felt ready. When it was time for the actual test, I completely bombed it. I did not manage my time well, and I just randomly answered the last 10 questions. I felt very doubtful of my score. After waiting for almost a month, I found out that I did not pass. I was extremely disappointed but more irritated at myself for getting so close. I also felt as if I spent nearly all of my college years preparing for capstone, only to be let down by a score on a test.

But, I was lucky to have a second chance. So, I fueled my anger into determination. I devoted an hour every day to practicing reading and listening, while also having great tutors to help me. I listened to podcasts during my commute to school, watched Chinese YouTubers, and tried to only speak Mandarin at home. Over the weekend, I watched Chinese news segments regarding politics and the economy. I was also stumped by a lot of the simplified characters on the test, having only used traditional characters all my life, so that was a challenge. I switched my keyboard settings, read all my class material in simplified, and borrowed books in simplified. Basically, I did everything that I could to be immersed in Chinese.

The second time around, I felt more confident during the reading section and was able to manage my time better. When I got my test score back, I was so relieved that I passed. All the hard work paid off, and a great weight was lifted off my shoulders. This capstone is very important to me, not only because my mother is from Taiwan, but also because I have a lot of fond memories there and wish to make more. Although I am a bit nervous about taking on such a rigorous program, I know that it will challenge me in the best way possible.

Lastly, I am thankful to the Chinese Flagship for helping me along the way and challenging me to achieve greater goals.